I sit here thinking about motherhood. How blessed I was to have the parents God gave me. How influential a mom is in our lives. Really, they are. Dads are the head of the home and often they are the main or partial providers and are gone a lot in most families. But the mom's...wow...they guide the home. They are the temperature gauge of the home. If mom is mad the whole home feels it. If mom is calm and peaceful the home feels tranquil. To our children we are preachers, instructors, teachers, healthful food menu planners, cooks, sanitation crew, drill Sargent, discipliner, health adviser and so much more. We fill the pages of our children's lives and are one of the main people that shape them into who they are and will be. Our words can build our children up or just one word can cut them to the heart... and the "Momma Look"...Whoa. No words necessary.
My earliest memories are of my mom. I remember how hard she worked being a house wife with four children. She gardened, canned, and froze our food. She sewed clothing for us and kept an impeccably clean home. She sat at the table reading Gods Word whenever she had a moment. Writing things down and then typing it all out to teach us at Bible study on Friday night. It was her cool hand that would be on my warm, feverish, head in the middle of the night, when I was sick as a child, praying over me for healing. Her arms I trusted to not let my head go under the water as I learned to swim . I could ask her anything. Tell her anything. She played games with us and taught us about God and Jesus...to behave, be kind, work for the Lord and serve others in all we do, to sew, cook, crochet, needle point, and so much more. She was super mom to me and as I grew up, she became my very best friend. She passed away much too young at 58 years old. That was 10 years ago. I miss her so much. I have so much I would like to share with her and tell her. I am so glad I never took her for granted. She was the best mom.
In stark sad contrast...I found out this week that the two foster toddlers, that are placed in our home...their mom got arrested this past week. Just another sad, terrible part, of her ongoing hard life. I feel for her, her life has been so different from my own. When the case worker came to visit this week and told me about the arrest, I asked if it was the first time she had been arrested and the caseworker said "no."
These boys came with some really hard behaviors. God literally carried us all thru the first, very hard, five weeks that they were here. It was so hard. It was and is not their fault at all. They are sweet boys that were never guided or taught anything at all. From all I have been told, I can only imagine a bit of what their life was like before coming here and none of it was stable, safe, secure or good. I am so grieved on this Mothers Day for this mom...sitting in jail. Who has made such a mess of her life, only God could help her get it back together. Her mind so ate up that her love for her sons is over-shadowed. Bless her heart. I am grieved for the relationship she could have had with them. They are beautiful and wonderful boys. A true gift from God to her. Oh, how a mother shapes our lives.
Oh Lord save her soul and bring someone along to witness to her in this time of clarity and reflection. Father God in heaven thank you for my mom. For her great love for all of her children and her legacy here on earth. Thank you for all the children you have entrusted Tim and I to raise for you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for these two little boys, that I have grown to love dearly and that have latched onto me so tightly as their mother. Help me be a good mom to them while they are here. Help them, heal them and give them the peace of knowing you from a young age forever. I thank you for all things and sit here tonight feeling so very blessed and grateful.
God in heaven, on this Mother's Day, help every mother to see the importance of her role in the life of her children. If they are lost help them find You. Give them Your guidance, peace and grace. Pour out Your strength on the mothers that are struggling. Bless them all on this Mother's Day and help them to know this blessing is of You. In Jesus Name Amen.