The two new foster toddlers have been with us over a month now. My children have learned so much from them being here in just that short amount of time. They have seen... Seen what deep neglect does to a child. They saw it before when we did foster care. But now it is all real and fresh again. My children are all older now and understand so much more. It is changing them all for the better. They see the intense behaviors and issues with these toddlers. Several of my children have come to me and said..."I am not going to ever do drugs mom and do this to my children" OR "Mom, I am going too love and teach my children as they are growing so they will not do these things" This experience is helping them see the way they want to parent. They are seeing how some bad decisions effect not only you but all those around you, especially your children. They have said they want to raise their children in love, guidance and discipline from birth. This experience has at times filled them with compassion to see these two little ones struggle so much. It has also been trying for all of us to listen to constant screaming and see the daily violent tantrums. To see children so small hit, scratch and hurt themselves when upset. We have all suffered more than one headache from it all. One night, Carolyn jokingly came to me and asked to sleep out in the van for the night to escape the noise. My children also know that every bit of what we are doing for these babies is for God. God is so worth it. His plan is so worth it. These children...are so worth it. To give their mom a break, the opportunity to work on herself, is so worth it.
We have all seen the hand of God on them and working in them since they have come.
They don't know what to make of us praying at the table before meals. The 2 1/2 year old thinks we are all pretending to sleep. So cute and innocent. The good days are more frequent than the hard days now. I can see them wanting to please us and that they love us as we love them and want the best for them. This is the reward. This is the joy. Just to know we are making some small difference for God in the world. Making a difference for these two little boys.
I have been with these two little ones non-stop with out a break for over a month now. The requirements put forth by the state are so intense and expensive for anyone to be a sitter... that there is no one to ever baby sit them for me, except for another certified foster parent. So... my wonderful husband. My precious, gracious, loving husband...gave me a wonderful gift yesterday. The gift to run away with my dad for the whole day and go antiquing.
Also, every Sunday for the last 14 years or so I have been the Sunday Chaplain at our local hospital. I go in first thing in the morning and do my rounds to see every patient that is in the whole hospital. It usually takes several hours depending on the patient load. I offer prayer or just visit a bit with every one. My sister has been making crocheted hearts to hand out to every patient all these years as well. Tim has said he would continue to care for all the children on Sunday mornings as well so I can continue with that ministry. Thank you God and thank you Tim!
I am blessed, blessed, blessed above and beyond what I deserve. I am grateful for my God and His great care of my life.
Oh! I almost forgot. We have one more new four legged kid! If you want to read about him here! He will not be here long but sure is cute!
May God lead and guide you in all you do for Him all the days of your life!
Titus 3:5 Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost;