We got a call from DFCS over three years ago, telling us that Billy and Timmy's biological mom was pregnant again and still unstable and heavily doing drugs. They wanted to know if we wanted the baby when it was born, to try to keep the siblings together. That, the new baby, like the boys, had been exposed from conception to heavy drug use. The boys have a lot of issues from this and the neglect and abuse they suffered before coming here. Tim and I prayed about it. Our lives were so very busy. Every day was so hard. From my older special needs children to Antonio's constant and physically demanding care, to several of our children's very hard daily behavior issues. I mean, I had a 1,2 and 3 year old at the time! So we prayed and told DFCS, that when the baby was born, we would take her on trial for 2 weeks and see if she fit into our home well. That day a friend sent me a link, on my computer, to watch the trailer for the movie "The Drop Box". I watched it and felt I had to watch the whole movie immediately. Tim and I watched it that weekend. I cried off and on through the whole movie. I was convicted to the core. It is a real life story, of a man and his wife, that put a drop box in their' home in South Korea. He is a pastor and so many people left babies on his door step, that often he would not find them until they had died the next morning. He put the box in his home, so he could get to them immediately and take them in and care for them. He and his wife care tirelessly for their own special needs son and these special needs children, finding them placement and keeping many of the hardest to place children and raising them. I cried and cried... how on earth could Tim and I tell DFCS we would try a child for two weeks to see if they fit in our home? That we might say no after two weeks because it made our lives harder? How selfish of us. God does not receive us into the Kingdom of God and boot us out after two weeks, if we have challenges or don't get everything perfectly right from the start. I told Tim we needed to make a commitment to this baby no matter what the drugs did to her. No matter what! He agreed, she was our daughter and we would love her and take her, no matter what. So that is just what we did.
We got the call to come and pick her up at the hospital when she was less than 48 hours old. She was such a beautiful little thing.
I was spread thin but God held me up and things got done. I am just feeling now, over the last year, that things have hit a slow and more peaceful season in our lives now...as Anna-Kate has turned a corner in some of her issues and Timmy and Elizabeth as well in some of their behaviors.
|She is so beautiful and looks like a little angel at times but...|
|unfortunately, about 70 percent of the time, she is like this. We lovingly call her crabby but cute. :)|
|She is way behind her peers but we just pray, love on her and encourage her and let her grow and such at her own pace. We don't push her as it makes her anxious.|
|Throwing a nice tantrum on the beach last summer while on vacation. :)|
|So pleased with her turkey on her dress for Thanksgiving.|
|She is very bonded to me but is a daddies girl through and through. She prefers him unless tired, hungry or hurting.|
My littlest Princess is a blessing to our home. I can not imagine our home or life with out her here with us. She is worth the work, effort like any child God blesses anyone with and she is our daughter through and through.
May the Lord God in Heaven have His hand on your always. Healing, leading and guiding you my sweet girl...as you live and grow in Him.
Isaiah 60: 1-2 "Arise, shine; for your light has come, And the glory of the LORD has risen upon you. "For behold, darkness will cover the earth And deep darkness the peoples; But the LORD will rise upon you And His glory will appear upon you.
Love, Daddy, mommy, Stephen, Antonio, William, Carolyn, Zeke, Elizabeth, Billy, Timmy and Kinsley