I do this all the time.
I wish I would learn my lesson and do as the Word of God says and let Him
do the planning, worrying, carrying the load.
After all….all things are in His hands.
He is the Master and the planner of my life. He is in control even when I don’t see things
going like I would like them to go. God
is so good. Often when things don’t go
as I am thinking they should, God shows me later why it didn’t. That He knows all things and knew things I didn’t
know. His plan and way is always way
better than I could have ever imagined.
Matthew
11:28-30 Come unto me, all ye that labour and
are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in
heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
In our culture when we think of the word surrender we think
of defeat. Or giving up our freedom to
an enemy. To be bound by the enemy we surrendered
to. We think about it in military
terms.
But with God. Surrender = Freedom.
But with God. Surrender = Freedom.
When we get saved we surrender our life, our will, our troubles and
despair over to Him. We are free. We are no longer bound by sin and the cares
of this world. We are in the world but not of the world. Heaven is now our forever home. He is a big and awesome
God and if God sets you free you will be free indeed!
John 8:36 If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.
Totally free in so many ways. Think of our children. How they never have to think where their next meal is coming from or if they have a bed to sleep in at night. They know we will protect, love and provide for them. How freeing, that as children, they don't have to think on those things. Same with us with God. We should not worry about the things in our life once He is our father. He loves us and will protect, love and provide for us. That is very freeing. But we often don't live like that. We worry. It robs us of our joy and causes stress. Distracts us from the daily blessings we have in life.
Hebrews 12:1-2 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.
All my life I have loved children. All I ever wanted to be was a stay at home mother. That was my lofty goal and desire in life. As I have walked thru life and I have lived and learned I have seen now how many children are out there that need homes and a family. Especially children with special needs.
I am blessed. Abundantly blessed and I know that. If this is all the children in life I am to raise….how wonderful and joyous that blessing has been. I truly cherish each and every one of Tim’s and my children that God has trusted us to bring up in the love and admonition of the Lord. What a wonderful fulfilling life I have had.
But….. I still have this very deep desire to adopt again. I am not alone. Tim also shares in this with me. We talk about it often and pray and wait. Praying that if God has any special little children out there, that need a home, that would fit well into our family, to please bring them to us. And so far……we wait. I am sharing my heart today. This is one thing that I struggle with. I have for years. To give this desire to God and leave it there. That it does not consume my thoughts and days. Distracting me from the ones that are before my eyes.
This added to other things that are pressing at times. I don't even always notice I am doing it. But one by one, little by little, I start to pull them back onto myself to try to fix, figure out and take care of. Most of them are things that I can often do nothing about anyways.
Adoption...Bills....Needs.....Therapy....Antonio's feeding issues.....Elizabeths health....Foster Care.....Children's behavioral issues....Home schooling.....Progression...Regression in some areas.....
When I give these issues or desires to God I can walk thru my days and life so happy and joyous even when days are hard. I can find joy in so much. God is with me. It is when I pull all these worries, things we are going thru and desires back onto my mind. Over think, over pray, over plan….That is when I begin to have it continually on my heart and mind and start to get impatient. Sigh.
It does feel good to let go doesn't it? :)
ReplyDeleteYes, Very good! Now if I can just stay the course this time for good. ;)
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