After some very, very hard days and nights. After days of us all climbing into bed exhausted for weeks, from extra work, dealing with hard behaviors and screaming all day and many nights. After days and days of getting only the basics done in life every day. After so many appointments and many family adjustments...life seems like we are finding our niche. God is doing a work in us all, in our lives and the beauty of it all is starting to shine thru.
Everyone knows what is expected of them and what needs to be done. Everyone is relaxing and enjoying our days again. Every day. No, the toddlers aren't perfect and behaving all the time. Bless their hearts they have been thru so much in the last six weeks of their life. Well...really for their whole lives. All things considered, by the grace of God, they are really doing exceptionally well. No, Elizabeth isn't behaving perfect either. But praise God, back to like she was before we took in these two little guys. No, life is not perfect and easy. It actually never has been or will be but it is the life God chose for us and we love it and are grateful for it. We are a happy family and have the peace of God in our unusual life we lead. But praise be to God. Life seems normal and doable again. It is still hard. But God is helping us all and we seem to have fallen into a routine and what feels normal for us all. It is like a huge exhale after the last many weeks. God is so faithful.
I have many baby goats being born right now, needing attention to bottle feed them and get them off to a great start. I am back to milking twice a day. God has worked out my schedule every day to get it easily done. I am getting the garden area around the house cleaned up for spring and our raised beds ready for planting. God has worked out our schedule so I can get these areas worked on as well. I pray every day for God to organize and ordain our day and time and I see Him daily work out toddler napping schedules and even melt downs, so I can be there for them when they really need me and work outside while they nap.
I am getting a glimpse of the great plan of God for us and for these two little boys.
I feel a huge amount of joy the last few days. Pleasure in seeing my husband getting enough sleep and coming home with energy again. That when he walks in the door he is overrun with squeals of "daddy" and hugs from all ages of children that love and missed him.
Joy in seeing my older children work around the house with the sense of helping us all out as a family and being compassionate toward the new toddlers. Great happiness in watching these two little guys learning, growing and bonding to us as their safe place. Their home. Their family. For as long as they need us. Praise God for His mercy endures forever! May God receive all the Glory.
Isaiah 61:3 To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.