Monday, June 24, 2013
It Never Gets Easier
I have so many happy memories and some sad ones. This is life. It is what it is. These memories, these past days, the people I knew and paths I have walked, God has used to teach me, shape me, refine me and make me who I am. I have many, many days of the year that bring such great joy and happy memories with them. Like the day my children were born. Or the day that we adopted some of them. Holidays and anniversaries. Most days truly in my life are days of joy.
Some people are very understanding of loss and how hard it is, they love us and remember with us. One friend often sends me a note of love and encouragement on these two very hard days. She remembers and knows. It always touches my heart deeply. Bless her richly Oh Lord. But most people don't even remember.
Grief is hard. Very hard. I try not to let it over whelm me. But it is what it is......it never gets easier. Truly....God is the only one I have found that could handle my grief in this area. He is the only one (and His Word) that has brought me comfort about that time in my life. The only one who helps me through those two very hard days on the calendar each and every year for these 13 years. He understands. He knows. When I start to spiral down into it all again....He reminds me, He lost His son. He understands. That this missing her is but for a moment, as life really is so short. He reminds me that we were blessed to have her the time we did and that we will see her again. That when we do her body and mind will be whole.
We have seen miracles upon miracles we would have never witnessed or seen. We would have never had the faith to walk thru the fire He has asked us to walk thru and come out the other side better and more blessed than we can explain. We have lost all we had and been abundantly blessed back more than we can count or fathom. Every hard step He has asked us to take He has faithfully picked us up and carried us through.
Faith Anne is our oldest daughter. Placed into our family by God. For a huge and wonderful purpose. This is the day, we celebrate, that she was born into this world, for such a purposeful,beautiful meaningful life. We miss her so much now and always will every day we live. Till we see her again, when we are caught up in the air and see Him face to face, in the twinkling of an eye.
Happy 16th birthday Faith Anne. We love you and you are always in our hearts and minds. I can't wait to hug you again!!
Love Always and Forever,
Dad and mom
Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.