I try to be an honest person and say things the way they
are. I try not to paint a huge happy
picture when things are not that way. I
try to answer questions asked by others as honestly as I can so they can have
an accurate view especially when asking about adopting a child with autism or
what it’s like to raise a child with Fetal Alcohol syndrome. People who feel led to adopt
children with special needs (or any children for that matter) need to know the truth and
facts. To only proceed after deep prayer
and fasting. To let God lead them into
it and choose their children for them on their adoption journey. To let God build their family. I get asked all the time why we adopted special needs
children. All I can say is that unless
the Lord builds a house it will not stand.
That Tim and I both feel the Lord brought us the children that were meant
to be ours forever. Just as the Lord
chose who would be in a family that is all related biologically. Ours was built the same way. Just thru a different means. We were shown by God a need that needed to be
met and when God asked us to meet it, we did. We have never looked back and have been
blessed abundantly for it. God is so
good.
Tim and I feel just as bonded to and love our adopted
children, as we do our biological ones.
We treat them all as our children and the kid’s sibling bonds run just
as deep as if they were all birthed by us.
They know no different. We are a
family. God is so good. We have been blessed beyond measure with each
and every one of our children.
Many people when they are standing outside looking into our
life they see it thru their own eyes. The
reality that they imagine or see is not what ours really is. I mean no life is going to be perfect and
everyone has their own ideas of what that entails. I mean of course I feel my husband is
perfect. :) I just can’t resist the man. But me, I always struggle with feeling
inadequate in all I do. I was the one
struggling with her weight all her life.
I am the one with no fashion sense AT ALL. I have always not been "normal". The children are home
schooled! Oh my! That has its own connotations to it. We live on a farm and actually drink goats
milk! Oh dear! And by the way…Do you wash your eggs before
you eat them???? Then there is the
children. I get approached all the time
when out in public about the children.
1) Are you with a special school or something? 2) who’s kids are all these? They
aren’t all yours are they? Don’t you
have any help with you???? When do you
have time for yourself? I could go on
and on. Very kind, nice, curious, well
meaning people. They all have so many
questions. :) The wonderful conversations and friends we have met this way! God is so good. We are truly an oddity that is not seen
often. When I do see a family like us
out and about I smile and thank God for encouraging me that day! I always shoot a prayer their way.
But what we see daily as we go thru our lives. Truly the ones living this life, is that we
live a normal life. This is normal for
us. Every time we add a child things
might be a bit bumpy for a while but soon we achieve a new normal and that
becomes our normal life. Every child is
special and any child that would be added into your life, by any means, would bring great
change. Change in routine, finances,
time management and often that child requires a sacrifice. Maybe sacrifice of sleep. Or the time you used to watch a TV show. This is how our life has changed. It has changed for the better, over and over
again, as time has gone on. As we have added each child. Life just got better and better.
Yes, when I was younger I dreamed of a perfect life. A perfect family, perfect husband, perfect
children, a perfect life. But what does
perfect look like to God? And to us, once
we live, learn and grow in the Lord? God
choose me when I was less than perfect, died for me, gave His life for me. And thru him I am able to go before the
Father sinless. Amazing! HE makes something beautiful of us and our lives. HE gave His life for this less than perfect
woman so that I could live my life perfected thru Him.
And my answer to you today as to why we adopted them? What has it done to our lives? How do we cope? All I can say is that adopting these children
has made our lives better than perfect.
God asked and we did it. He
stretched us out of our comfort zone.
Asked us to walk where we would have normally been afraid to walk. Shared what we thought we would never
share. And lived how we never thought we
would or could live. We have prayed
more, cried more and laughed more. And
it has only bore good fruit in our walk with God, character and in our
lives. It has drawn us closer to Him
than I ever thought possible. We are sanctified by the blood of the
Lamb. My children are wonderful
children. They are who they are and
kids with special needs are great kids. If
they never progressed a bit more, got to
a certain grade in school or moved out on their own…I am content in that.
They are who they are and they are great! We all have our issues within ourselves. Things that we struggle with. Those things are what makes us who we are. Our perfection comes by God, thru God and by
living in God and His Word and ways. Our
life is better than perfect. Not always
wonderful. Not always easy. But I would have it no other way. One thing I can honestly say is that it is
never boring! And as far as having time
for myself. I choose to spend my time
living in the moment of serving God, serving my husband and raising the family
God gave me. That is my want, my desire,
my hobby and my dreams. To lead, guide
and shape the mind and life of a child is a huge gift that God has entrusted us
with. I want to be there and not miss a
thing.
All of my children have
been some of the biggest blessings and miracles of my life. God has used them to make my life, Tim’s and my life, better
than perfect.
Psalm
127:3-5 -Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is his
reward. As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the
youth. Happy
is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but
they shall speak with the enemies in the gate.
blessings,
susan
Way to go, Susan! You have a fabulous attitude and a great explanation. I think your family is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Julie, I appreciate the encouragement. Thank you also for taking the time to comment. :)
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